Autobiography Continued

In high school, I was an achiever. I joined pageants, broadcasting, and speech competitions. I was also a consistent athlete. Which allowed me to travel to different place, competing in CAVRAA and palarong Pambansa. My high school life was full of joy and excitement. But one day everything changed. My father and step mom separated papa was devastated when he found out that while he was away, She had been with another man. He turned to alcohol, sleepless night and tears. He almost forgot that he still had children waiting for him.
He never returned abroad, and all the money he worked for was all gone. From then on, life become miserable for me and my brother. My brother fell into had company, and I was left alone. At one point, I was taken advantage of by someone who should have protected me. I become a victim of something I can never erase. That pain pushed me to leave, work and continue my studies. I was only in grade 8, but I was already working. Just to survive and support my education.
During pandemic, I entered into same sex relationship. We lived together, and for the first time in a long while, I felt safe under a roof I could call home while I continued my studies, Life was more peaceful then, and I was happy . but deep inside, the pain and bitterness of my past never left me. Many people said to me, “you’re so strong, you handled everything so well, you made it through” But did I really? Did a child like me trully survive on my own? No, I didn’t. I was barely holding on cried when no one could hear me. I was denied the childhood I deserved, denied the family I longed for, denied the loving environment away child should have. I want through days that felt too long, nights that felt too empty, and moments when I wondered if I would ever feel whole again.
The truth is, I survived not because of me, but because of god. He was my only refuge, the one I clung to, the one I ran to, so no I didn’t survive on my own, God carried me through, because he know that form the way beginning until now, I have always been weak.